— I can’t watch SBS Healing Camp.
—bamn—
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As simple as that.
I don’t know how many times I tried watching the show but I always end up closing the video for like 20 minutes after it started.
I tried to live stream but close it when I heard Dae’s voice cracking and about to cry. I tried to watch it after I downloaded the file and end up closing the video when the MC’s asked Dae the worst comment he read in the internet. I tried to watch it when the subs are out and end up closing when Dae is explaining what really happened. And I tried to watch it for the succeeding days but I always end up closing the video when I know that my tears is about to fall. Now, I tried to watch it and decided that maybe I can watch it someday, someday when my heart will not feel suffocated anymore hearing the news because until today I can still feel and see the pain in Dae.
And that is only Dae’s part what more when I watch GD’s incident? What will I feel? or what should I feel?
I still can’t deal with these 2 incidents until now because just thinking of it, it feels like I am in a time machine going back to that days when my tears fall unconsciously and finding myself staring at nowhere. It questioned my love for them and how much I can take to be able to stand beside them. This incidents shows how much they mean to me and how will I be able to understand and continue loving someone without knowing who they really are.
I hate you BIG BANG for making me feel this way. I hate you for making yourselves a part of me. I hate you for making me realized that in one way or another you SAVED ME.